Sunday, May 31, 2015
Saturday, May 30, 2015
Appetite
I dont have appetite anymore , constantly im losing my weight. Bit by bit. In the beginning i didn't notice it even.
Now i see, couse others are seeing.
Looks like im in meth, any dexedrine or amf. Maybe i am.
Amazing. I dont want to eat.
Lets see how it goes.
Lets see how it finishes.
I liked to be hungry .
I like hunger
But dont have appetite.
Not at all
Just water is i care
Now i see, couse others are seeing.
Looks like im in meth, any dexedrine or amf. Maybe i am.
Amazing. I dont want to eat.
Lets see how it goes.
Lets see how it finishes.
I liked to be hungry .
I like hunger
But dont have appetite.
Not at all
Just water is i care
Wednesday, May 20, 2015
Massim6rv
Eile 6htul ma unustasin kuidagi need stabiilsed rohud v6tmata, need mida nii naljalt unustada ei tohiks. 6igemini see meenus mulle ku olin juba uinumas aga m6tlesin et let it be, mis sest ikka on. Tulin teadvusele korralikus deliiriumis , see polnud ei teadvelolek ega ka teadvusetus.
Ma olin sooritanud massim6rva, tunnen siiani seda hyybiva vere l6hna, anonyymseid lihatykke, kleepuvaid p6randaid. Inimeste paanikat. Omaenda sisemist rahu. Ma panin pommi kuhugi kesklinna, tundus nagu oleks Tallinn olevat. Ma olin rahulik, ainus hirm oli selle ees et mind ei tabataks.
Sellest oli raske valja tulla, tahtsin ainult oksendada.
Nyyd on sellest paar tundi m66das ja ma hakkan aru saama, et see oli lihtsalt nightmare.
Mul on taielik s6ltuvus aga ma plaanin paari nadala jooksul teraapiat muuta. But must be step by step not cold turkey..
Ma olin sooritanud massim6rva, tunnen siiani seda hyybiva vere l6hna, anonyymseid lihatykke, kleepuvaid p6randaid. Inimeste paanikat. Omaenda sisemist rahu. Ma panin pommi kuhugi kesklinna, tundus nagu oleks Tallinn olevat. Ma olin rahulik, ainus hirm oli selle ees et mind ei tabataks.
Sellest oli raske valja tulla, tahtsin ainult oksendada.
Nyyd on sellest paar tundi m66das ja ma hakkan aru saama, et see oli lihtsalt nightmare.
Mul on taielik s6ltuvus aga ma plaanin paari nadala jooksul teraapiat muuta. But must be step by step not cold turkey..
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